Sunday, November 28, 2010

AGAIN Chapter 4: A Very Brief History of Reincarnation



Souls are poured from one into another of different kinds of
bodies of the world.

Jesus Christ in Gnostic Gospels: Pistis Sophia

The idea of reincarnation has been around for a long time and one can find it in the Jewish Kabbalah and early Christianity where references to reincarnation in the New Testament were removed. In the Bible: “…the surprising thing is that there is actually a considerable amount of evidence for reincarnation in the Bible we are left with and generally speaking – people are unaware that there are definite references in the New Testament that unequivocally imply reincarnation.” When Emperor Constantine and the Roman Empire adopted Christianity as their official religion, reincarnation was not a part of the deal.

The 6th century found the Second Council of Constantinople formally declaring reincarnation as heresy:
“In the 6th century, in the year 553 A.D. the 2nd Council of Constantinople officially declared reincarnation a heresy and the doctrine of reincarnation was officially banished by the Christian Church…The decision was intended to enable the church to increase its power at that time, and to tighten its hold upon the human mind by telling people their salvation had to be accomplished in one incarnation and one lifetime, and if they didn’t make it, they would go to Hell.” Does this not appear quite motivated?

Dr. Gerard Encausse of the metaphysical Rosicrucian Order, says,
“Has reincarnation been a part of the Christian religion at some time? One can frankly respond in the affirmative to this. Significantly the gospels tell us in plain language that Saint John the Baptist was the reincarnated Elias. This was a mystery and Saint John the Baptist, when questioned, kept quiet but others knew the truth of it.”

Locating this felt pertinent:
“The concept of Reincarnation is quite ancient. It appears to have evolved out of that most ancient of beliefs, upon which all religions were established, the idea of the survival of the soul after death. It seems likely that reincarnation evolved from the idea that humans should have a second chance at rectifying sins committed during their time on Earth. With the original concept, of a single life and death, salvation was not possible. It was widely practiced in Greece amongst certain cults, especially the Brotherhood of Pythagoras, where it was known as Transmigration.”

There has been major interest and activity associated with reincarnation.
“Many cultures throughout the earth’s history have believed in reincarnation or rebirth in one form or another and have taken the subject very seriously, to the point, where to aid those who have been close to mortal demise, they have taken them to their societies birthing chambers, close to where women would be in childbirth. This was done so that the discarnate soul leaving the body would not have far to travel to reincarnate or have rebirth within a new life and this was thought greatly to help the transmigration into the new host and life, therefore allowing rebirth to take place shortly after mortal demise.’

I also found this:
“The classic form of the reincarnation doctrine was formulated in India, but certainly not earlier than the 9th century BC, when the Brahmana writings were composed. After the Upanishads clearly defined the concept between the 7th and the 5th century BC, it was adopted by the other important Eastern religions which originated in India, Buddhism and Jainism. Due to the spread of Buddhism in Asia, reincarnation was later adopted by Chinese Taoism, but not earlier than the 3rd century BC.”

Some prominent thinkers believed in reincarnation; “Among the ancient Greeks, Socrates, Pythagoras, and Plato may be numbered among those who made reincarnation an integral part of their teachings.” The theory of reincarnation is often attributed to Pythagoras, “since he spent some time in Egypt studying its philosophy.” Additionally, Blake, Boehme, Browning, Bruno, Emerson, Flaubert, Freud, Kant, Kipling, Gandhi, Goethe, Jung, Leibniz, Leonardo da Vinci, McTaggart, Origen, Philo Judaeus, Paracelsus, Schiller, Schopenhauer, Sibelius, Spinoza, St. Augustine, Thoreau, Tolstoy, Wagner, Whitman, and Yeats have been associated with the concept, just to name a few. “The concept of reincarnation – that our souls may experience many lifetimes over centuries, maybe even thousands of years – has been present in virtually every culture since ancient times. The Egyptians, Greeks, Romans and Aztecs all believed in the ‘transmigration of souls’ from one body to another after death.”

I found this and thought, wow.
“Tracing the idea of rebirth backwards into remote times, we find that it runs like a golden seam through the thought and teachings of some of these greatest minds and existed too in early cultures. That a belief in reincarnation forms a basic part of many eastern religions is well known. What may be surprising to some is its acceptance by peoples and cultures as diverse as some African tribes and the Eskimos; Australian and Finns, Lapps, Danes and Norse; Pacific Islanders and Celts of Gaul, Wales, England and Ireland. In other words, it is not difficult to make a case for reincarnation.”

Zalman M. Schachter says, “Death did not frighten the pious Jew of old. He had faith in the talmudic contention that death is simply a transition from one life into another, likened to the ease of taking a hair out of milk.”

Rebecca Weiner states:
“Reincarnation, gilgul in Hebrew, is not explicitly mentioned in the Torah, though some interpret traditional Jewish practices to refer to reincarnation. Maimonides has written about the allusion of biblical verses to its occurrence. For example, Daniel 12:13 states, 'now go your way to the end and rest, and you shall arise to your destiny at the end of days.'

A second example can be found in the concept of yibum, when a married man dies childless, tradition holds that his spouse should marry the man’s brother and their first-born should receive the dead father’s name.”

Like Christianity, Judaism has substantial roots in reincarnation. “Many Jews are surprised to learn, or may even wish to deny, that reincarnation...is an integral part of Jewish belief...” This Faith “believed” until the 1800s, when popular western thinking infiltrated Eastern European Jewish society. In many Chassidic and Orthodox Jewish communities, reincarnation continues to be an important foundation of one’s belief. “In Hebrew, it is called ‘gilgul ha’ne’shamot,’ literally the recycling or transmigration of souls.”

Kabbalah uses the Zohar texts: “It is important to understand that in Judaism reincarnation is in no way cruel or fatalistic, as may be found in other traditions. Judaism instructs us to always be concerned to change the reality of this world for the better. For a Jew, the world in which we live exists and has meaning and purpose.”

As long as a person is unsuccessful in his purpose in this world, the Holy One, blessed be He, uproots him and replants him over and over again. (Zohar I 186b)

All souls are subject to reincarnation…” (Zohar II 99b)

Dr. Jacob Neusner explains that the word ‘Midrash’ is based on a Hebrew word meaning ‘interpretation’ or ‘exegesis’. and says “every Jew to ever live, and who ever will live, stood at Mount Sinai when the Jews received the Covenant from God. Reincarnation may help explain how this midrash could be true.” Weiner says, “[t]he purpose of reincarnation is seen as a chance for a soul to achieve a goal not achieved in a previous life and as a chance to reward man for fulfilling the desires of his Creator. Reincarnation has also been viewed as punishment for a sinner’s previous deeds. For example, a rich man who abused his power may come back as poor.”

“Suppressed in Europe, the idea of reincarnation appears in Asia Minor, taught and protected by the Paulinian Gnostics. “The knowledge was deliberately spread to Thrace (modern Bulgaria) and thence throughout the Slavic world. Following the trade routes into central Europe, the doctrine of metempsychosis reappeared in Europe where it was taken up by groups and communities who became known as the Cathars and the Albigenses. Their beliefs became so popular and threatening to the established church that once again persecution broke out, this time in the form of the fanatical Inquisition. Those who escaped to England and their followers became known as the Lollards.

The Renaissance throughout Europe meant a revival of Platonism, interest in the Kabala and the ideas of Pythagoras. That a versatile genius like Leonardo Da Vinci was a reincarnationist comes as no surprise; in his notebooks there are several passages that show clearly that Leonardo accepted the pre-existence of the soul. At about the same time, Paracelsus wrote: “Some children are born from heaven and others are born from hell, because each human being has his inherent tendencies, and these tendencies belong to his spirit, and indicate the state in which he existed before he was born.

Philosopher and dramatist, Giordano Bruno, born in 1548, was put to death in 1600 accused of heresy. Intellectually, he began within the Church but, dissatisfied, he later studied the teachings of earlier reincarnationists – Plato, Hermes, Raymond Lully, Nicolas de Cusa, and others. Threatened with arrest on a charge of heresy he travelled through Europe, lecturing at various universities. His theories were brilliantly developed, he was a true evolutionist and one of the first Europeans to introduce the term ‘Monad (Leibniz later took this up). A fascinating fact about Bruno is that by simply extending his views of the cosmic laws of rebirth (that all movement and manifestation is cyclic, and that the soul incarnates cyclically) to the workings of the physical body, he was the first Westerner to teach the idea of the circulation of the blood.”

In the case of ancient Egypt,
“[t]he Egyptian Book of the Dead describes the travel of the soul into the next world without making any allusions to its return to earth. As it is well known, the ancient Egyptians embalmed the dead in order that the body might be preserved and accompany the soul into that world. This suggests their belief in resurrection rather than in reincarnation. Likewise, in many cases of ancient tribal religions that are credited today with holding to reincarnation, they rather teach the pre-existence of the soul before birth or its independent survival after death. This has no connection with the classic idea of transmigration from one physical body to another according to the demands of an impersonal law such as karma.”

Lately there has been an increasing interest in reincarnation:
“In recent years, a number of influences have brought past lives into present consciousness. The widely read writings of Edgar Cayce, for one, have been surprisingly influential in America, lending credence to the idea that past lives can contribute to illness, emotional difficulties, relationship difficulties, and so on. (I say ‘surprisingly’ because Cayce channeled thousands of past-life readings while in a trance state, even though his Christian-fundamentalist conscious self didn’t initially believe in past lives!) Many people, thanks to Cayce, now understand the idea of karma as the spiritual fallout of good or bad behavior from the soul’s past. Still others have encountered Hindu teachings, in which the idea of reincarnation is central, by being exposed to yoga or reading the popular works of authors such as Caroline Myss and Barbara Brennan on the chakras, the subtle bodies, and energy medicine. The famous Bhagavad-Gita is for sale today in nearly every bookstore.

And who would have expected to see the Dalai Lama vying with the Pope in the bestseller lists? The high-profile presence of Tibetan Buddhist lamas throughout America and the world has profoundly altered the spiritual landscape of Western society. The making of a film like Little Buddha, with its story of a Tibetan lama reborn in the body of a young American boy, would have been unthinkable in Hollywood a generation ago, but now it receives huge acclaim. Nor does an actor like Richard Gere hesitate to profess his Buddhist affiliations publicly. Many people, myself included, have turned to meditation and radically changed our lifestyles after exposure to these powerful emissaries of ancient wisdom.”

Reincarnation as an idea, can tell us a lot about history. When analyzing various sects, religions, peoples, etc., we can study our nature. At times we are eclectic, varied, homogeneous and harmonious. Different ways of being or manifesting speak to our range.

It would be easy to dismiss reincarnation and place it in the realm of fancy but history speaks an alternate story. If we validate certain aspects of history, then why not this aspect? Most approaches to the concept appear to exhibit a certain bias. Additionally, the way each person is going to come to the History I present here, is different. It would be important to note that what I chose to include is suspect. It was arbitrary – what I found on the Internet – and specifically, what fits into my belief-structure.

I do think history is interpretive. Yes, certain events have occurred on specific dates but we give meaning and/or significance to events. In You Never Know, I use the change of the planet Pluto’s status (from being considered a planet) as an example of how we change interpretation over time. History is interesting. We often learn more about what was significant to an era than anything else. Studying History can be very valuable if we stay away from it as fact. I am very willing to explore the history of reincarnation, but I am under no curtain of certitude. It is validating to recognize certain cultures’ beliefs, but these often change. I do not think a culture that is loyal to a belief-system, is outside the realm of change. Members of a culture might have believed something at a given time or still do, but that may alter. Shifts in paradigms or models and instability reign in life, you know. History, like most things, is not stable or secure. We may desire a linear narrative – a story that has a beginning, middle and end – but we will not get one. Our view of History is usually motivated.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Who knew? Chapter 1: La, La




A bird doesn't sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song.
Maya Angelou

April 27, 2008 - Years since my first brain surgery (August 13,2003) and coma and I sang my first song. Of course only I knew I was singing “Think of Me” by Andrew Lloyd Webber because I still have a voice and speech impediment called dysarthria. I used to practice this song at The Royal Conservatory of Music in Toronto. I was also asked to sing a song from the musical, Phantom of the Opera, where this song is from, as a guest star with Bitch Diva (Michael Fitzgerald) at Pimblette’s in Toronto. So what precipitated my singing? Well all I can say is it was Andrew Lloyd Webber night on American Idol (2008), which I watched, and a young girl singing prodigy (Nicki Yanofsky) sang the National Anthem at a hockey game that was playing on the television at a restaurant I was at. This really agitated me. I sang in the shower the next day. Later on I sang “Think of Me” from Phantom for my parents and asked them to identify it. My father got it but he said it took a lot of skill. I know I sound awful now so I have to re-configure the experience of singing as something I am doing for myself. I have known for a long time that singing for me was personal but it took a while to absorb: To not give a hoot who heard me. Billie Holiday said; “I hate straight singing. I have to change a tune to my own way of doing it. That's all I know.” I guess that I am singing my own way now.

As I said in You Never Know: A Memoir, it was horrible for me to sing in front of my nephew, Eli. Now I sing Happy Birthday. It still sounds awful but at least I try, eh? I started to practice “Think of Me” in voice therapy in addition to other songs.
Initially, I was concerned my speech/voice pathologist would have difficulty understanding me but she thinks it is an amazing exercise and good for my vocal chords. Who can argue with that? I do not miss singing now but it is like breathing to me. I often hear others sing who are not as good as I was but are now much better than me. I often wonder at the comparison and irony of the situation. If I dwelt on how unfair it was I would be doomed to bitterness. As it stands, I love it when other people sing around me. I only hope they remember I used to sing professionally. I do not want them to stop at all; I think it is more about validation.

I watched the film The Diving Bell and The Butterfly . I used to use the commonalities between us a lot before I saw the film – he wrote his book with one eye that blinked letters and I write my books with one severely bent finger. We both had brain trauma which landed us in the hospital and changed our lives. The gorgeous Jean-Dominique Bauby, AKA Jean-Do Bauby, the former editor of French Elle magazine had Locked-In Syndrome, had one eye sown shut and had a twisted face. He was essentially paralyzed from head to foot: “On December 8, 1995 at the age of 43, Bauby suffered a massive stroke. When he woke up twenty days later, he found he was entirely speechless; he could only blink his left eyelid. This rare condition is called Locked-in Syndrome, a condition wherein the mental faculties are intact but the entire body is paralyzed.” In the film, which may or may not be an accurate portrayal, he is very bitter and there is a marked before and after quality. I am far from bitter and regard my body now as an evolution or a progression.

The pictures I have of “before” are still me, they are not an avatar. An article entitled, “Avatars for the wheelchair-bound: The value of inclusion in digital spaces,” (Theory and Research in HCI.) explains what “Avatars” are; “Avatars are the representation of the user within digital spaces, and can range from flat, non-animated pictures to pseudo-3D models that explore virtual worlds.”

My history is mine. I looked at older photos for a television broadcast and came to this realization. I majorly had to revise what image meant for me. It is an ongoing process and is definitely one of my challenges. I regard my issue as an opportunity to reconstruct my relationship to beauty in practical terms. My ideas are made concrete. So for the time-being I shall stop the false comparisons. I am not only my physicality.

Some children were watching a CD Rom I gave to a physical therapist that was like a mini documentary. It had stuff I did before on it – some acting and singing – and me now. For the children there was a clear demarcation and some wondered aloud who the “girl before” was. When they discovered it was me, they were incredulous and wondered if I would return to how I was. I know I have gone through a long process regarding my current physicality which most people have not gone through at all. For me to see a continuity now rather than a clear marker is substantial. The children's frank honesty is probably what adults think as well. I remember a camera-person was looking at an old photo I have on my wall with my grandparents. He wondered who that person (me) was. A new attendant was also looking at pictures and assumed I was my mother.

Tamara (speech/voice pathologist) says that there are many ways a person can look different. I wear glasses now, my hair is longer or shorter, I am older etc. Still…A computer technician saw an older picture of me on my computer and asked if that was me – Look, there definitely is a before and after quality to me and I think I would be delusional not to see that. It is difficult for me to be on the opposite side of the spectrum from where I was image-wise but I can do nothing about it. Interesting lesson though. I certainly do not want to misrepresent my looks but I am getting conflicting feedback. Some people acknowledge a shift while others say that I am not so altered.

I am now a different version of the old me. To move on it is necessary to accept the present changes. Of course, I would like to have my old voice and looks - but I do not. I can still communicate – differently. Opting out of image-ideology is so hard for me, but really I have no choice. I have agreed to do a documentary and maybe showing people one can get past challenges will help. Going on camera looking and sounding like this is very hard - but it is worth it if I can reach people. In the Wizard of Oz (1939, Victor Fleming) a curtain is removed to reveal what the actual Wizard looks like. The camera is lifting my curtain.

I do enjoy it when people see what I have done but I keep thinking that my writing right now is equally and maybe more, incredible. My physicality is diminished but in other respects I am achieving quite a bit.

That people regard their working physicality as “better” is kind of odd to me. My parents were at a party and some people compared me to their son who has major mental problems. There is no comparison. I understand that people who need to overcome challenges become a sudden comparison. We all have challenges though. I might need assistance to do certain things and my physicality has changed but really. I got a letter from someone who “wished he had half of the brain I have.” While I feel humbled by his suggestion, there is validation. No matter that I had brain trauma I am more than capable.

Some people wonder if I am sad, depressed or feel a sense of longing when I see old videos of myself. Honestly, I am fine. I used to have major issues about the way I look but there is a sense of pride in people seeing what I have done. Not half as many persons would have been privy to the old me. Even if my lessons are that I was beautiful and talented – which I did not see – I feel privileged for the awareness.
My positive attitude continues to surprise most everyone – including me. There is so much I could be broken about. I was so upset about not getting closure on one of my brain surgeries and my coma that I was sinking into a depression. I could have stayed in that feeling, and this might sound crass, but I chose not to. I honoured my feelings, which have not suddenly disappeared, but I decided to focus on other things. The hell of sadness was something I did not want to add to everything else. Sadness is not a choice, one cannot turn it on or off at will, but for me there was a limit. If I focus on the negative I could bury myself in a hole. I could do drugs, avoid people, and not write books. Hide.

Since appearing on TV for national broadcasts, I take pictures. (My speech/voice pathologist, Tamara, thinks appearing on TV, doing an interview, is remarkable considering I would not use the phone with her 2 years ago.) I might have had substantial concerns with the way I looked or sounded on TV but it was more important to me to reach out to people. Pictures now are less about how I look, and much more about creating memories.

I do not have one picture with my nephew Eli as a baby because I was exceedingly self-conscious about my appearance. I have a new nephew Tomek and will make a concerted effort to include myself in photos. As Napoleon Bonaparte said “a picture is worth a thousand words.”

My very first photo with Eli and Tomek was on June 29, 2008. It was very calculated and like when I first squeezed my mother’s hand and spoke after the coma; I thought a lot about it before I did it. The reality of my appearance might be shocking to some who knew me as I looked before, but I cannot control other’s reactions.
I took a picture with Jeff and Bambie (friends of my parents) and my parents at their wedding anniversary dinner. I was resistant but I am glad I did it. In addition to creating a fond memory it was the best picture I have taken. The symmetry in my face is very encouraging. In the past, passport and medical pictures were quite wonky.

In an article I wrote called “Double Standard?” I say, “Most pictures we choose to represent ourselves are inaccurate, right? Most of us cannot stand our driver’s license or passport pictures. May as well be a movie-star or look like the old me. Drag-identity is liberating. As I will often explain, to me “drag” is not “cross-dressing.” “Drag” is about layers of difference. I find “otherness” preferable to sameness. If my disabilities put me on the fringe – great. If the way I think belies convention, so be it. I am glad that I have a PhD but I do not fit or follow a conventional model of that at all. My “difference” permeates many aspects of my being. The ways in which I present identities now are not false, they are drag.” Identity and image are changeable.